Of Hmmm...
Dear TomHa,
I realise, in the end, that I am somewhat different a lot of my friends. Just finishd updating myself on WY and LDM's blogs and it appears to me that both of them seriously enjoys engaging themselves in intellectual workouts. WY more of the artistic side, LDM more of the philosophical, academic side. I have many other friends who are also like that. Like I think MOST of my MIR team mates are very technologically savvy, gasping at the utter amazement that I do not know what the hell dreamweaver is yesterday, Haha, and of course, I think I am just someone who had been thrown into an environment that was not really suitable for him and had to, like all humans in every situation, to try to survive as well as he can.

I am those kind of person who loves to slack, a kind of person whom I will call brain-dead. I don't like to think too much into things. I find it very troublesome and tiring. When you are tired physically, you sleep soundly on bed and feel refreshed the next day. However, if you engage yourself in too much intellectual stuff, you go to bed and get nightmares because your brain cells become too active and you wake up feeling more tired and in fact, scared. Yup this is my theory. And, like what I had said, how I even get into university, a achievement as I would note it to be is due to luck, not much of how good I am. I am just lucky that I can do the examination questions and get rather decent results after some due hardwork. I am those kind of person who would just love to sit under the scarlet evening sun, fishing beside a lake where some great mountains is overlooking. I am also those kind of person who love to walk amongst nature, cause the sweet air never fails to freshen me up. Yep, all in all, I am someone who aims to be a 'brain-dead' slacker with not a care in the world.

But, this world where got so simple one...

I have to make money, to help out my family, to support a family when I grow old and also, the money to slack. I need to have contacts, as no man is an island, need to have friends as you'll need companionship in the end, need to have education in order to have the skills to make money. Compound to all those would be the expectation of the society to have you being a responsible and capable man to be recognised, and many many other things, how to slack?

Only a person who had been through the worst can truly enjoy slacking, at least that is how it is, I think.

Jefferson that I know a little about everything, at least everything in what we had conversed about thus far, but I can be taken apart very simply if you just dive a little deeper into the topic of interest. To me, knowledge, never makes me feel satisfied spiritually, never. Perhaps it was due to how knowledge had been forced into my brain by myself, by external forces, but the main point is that knowledge never fills me up spiritually. My knowledge of many things is still my social tool. My superficial tool is just there for me to be able to strike conversations with people of variable interests. Superficial knowledge to get superficial friends. Nice...

However, I am still grateful to have friends. People whom I had been through shit and pain and beautiful moments with.