Resolutions!

Dear TomHa,
In a twinkle of an eye, 2005 passed by. What does that mean? That we 1 year nearer to the day when the heat death of the universe comes, and that we should appreciate every glancing seconds as we approach the armageddon that would devour all of us in million of years time. Sorry, feeling rather unconscious now as I had not been sleeping enough ever since I came back from NZ. A little drowsy, guess it is just a matter of time before I go back to the sinful caffeine. Hope that does not come so soon.

So, with the new year already started, I guess some resolutions is in order, although I never ever really followed them to the dot. Firstly first, I really hope that I am able to get alphabets that are more appealing to the eye. Yes, when I first entered university, I had hoped for a first class honours, then after an examination, I only hope for a second upper, and after the second examination, I can only hope for a second lower, and now, I am still hoping for a second lower. I was rather surprised that I actually got an A for the module when I actually got a serious food poisoning symptoms in the morning, vomitting and shitting in every toilet that I pass by. And those modules that I come out thinking that 'Alamak, confirm A one' turned out to be B- grades. Life just likes to play jokes on you don't they? So, I am aiming for more spectacular results, not those kind of Dean's list results, but those slightly above average ones.

After my results, next comes my hope that I would make it into the team that would be embarking on the Himalayan expedition this coming long break in June. I mean, after my stint in NZ, I cannot help but keep thinking about the mountains everyday. I like climbing, I enjoy climbing and I am jolly well aware of the dangers involve. However, it is only when I was in the upper levels of the stratosphere that I began to breathe in the freshest of air, see the views that far and few had ever seen, and most importantly, experience whatever that my previous geography textbooks had taught me. I loved physical geography, and seeing them first hand is the best thing that can happen to me. Life is good in geographically interesting country. Can't Singapore lie closer to some fault lines or something like that? Although I would not want the worries of when the next earthquake or volcanic eruptions is coming next. Man are a bunch of greedy folk. Well, so what this means is that I must work harder in my trainings, work harder in my sponsorship appeals, work harder in my work literally. A life of few hours of sleep is again expected and I hope that I am able to survive that alive (the working part and the climbing part)

Given that these 2 resolutions is going to squeeze so much juice out of me, I am not going to mark out more resolutions, other than the fact that I would like to scale Kilimanjaro in Dec '06. This is still in the cards, shall not make too much plans for it. Shall work on my Nepal expedition first, although I really hope that this one can work out fine. More mountains, more forests, less urbanisation!

Alright, I hope that I am able to find a girlfriend or something to fill the void in my existence. Having a companion is never a bad thing I guess and I hope that I am able to influence some of my passion to her as I guess not everyone will label my life a life even though I am enjoying myself all the time. Sometimes, when the work gets too tough, just thinking that whatever that I am doing is actually fuelling my passion just keeps me going and feeling happy. I would call this a life. I mean, as long as you feel happy, I would say that you are a guy with full of life. Does not matter if you club a lot, read a lot, sleep a lot. As long as you enjoy whatever you are doing, you have a life. Nobody's life is pre-ordained to be like this like that. Isn't that what everybody had wanted in the first place? A little side tracked, no matter. Yar, try to be bold when it comes to matters of the heart Kheng Wee. I mean, after staring death in the face on the mountains, this should be piece of cake, isn't it? I hope I actually walk the talk.

Well, that is an awfully lot of things to achieve this coming 365 days! I hope I am able to pull thorugh all of them!

Happy New Year Everybody!