Dear TomHa,
So much is happening around the world that seems to evoke my sense of uselessness around the spate of things that is going on. I wonder why, but there is always this innner urge in me to be where the DART team of the Civil Defence is whenever I see them on a humanitarian mission of search and rescue. But what to do, as I would like to stress again, I am just another useless engineering undergraduate still worrying over my programming and exams which is just around the corner. I mean, 20 years old already and nothing that I know is useful to inflict a direct positive impact on the people of one of the world's poorest country? It's just frustrating..
None of that matters anymore as my mum would never let me go to Nias due to expert's warning of another earthquake around the same Sundra plates. Sigh. Sometimes, you just aren't able to do things that you want and yet being forced to do all the things that you do not want. I mean, why would I want to do programming, physics and all the modules that I am taking now? For the degree, for the pay in the future? Nothing academic that I had been doing all these years is what I had wanted, but I had to do that. That is just the sad irony of my life.
Oh yah, just watched a House of Fury, a rather crappy chinese movie about secret agents and whole lot of kung fu fighting. Rather funny and should help in de-stressing. Must say that Gillian Chung is really chio! Haha, overtook Jolin in my list of chio-bus! Yah, that is like the only high of my life this week.. Sigh..