Dear Diary,
Sorry for not writing for ages. Did not know what to write but I expect that this will be quite a long one. So please do have some patience with me! =)
Childhood
Been involved in this faint obsession to watch kids play in the playground and any other places lately. Pedophilic?? I don't think so. It is just this reminiscent(did I get the spelling right?/) feeling that I like very much. Watching these kids play makes me realise that I haven't really had much of a childhood. I was the only child in the family until my brother came on. But by then, I was already in primary school and studies begin to take some toll on me. I had been closely related to sports in my childhood years. Wushu, basketball, badminton especially. To train takes up time too and spider catching, marbles, and police catch thieves sort of game became distant to me. All I had were Teenage Mutant ninja Turtles figurines to keep me company. Sigh... those were the sad days...
Currently
Although opened up quite a bit, I realised that I am still the rather introvert, quiet, shy and reserved kind of guy. However, all my friends it seemed bears no such simlarities with me. In fact, in my opinion, in my 18 years of life, all my friends are those happy, sociable type...Hmmm...that is quite a strange thing isn't it.
Have not yet come to pass
I foresee myself as being lonely all my life. Seriously, I don't see how I am going to get myself a girlfriend, much less a wife. That appears to be a rather sad thing right?? Arghh! Cannot wallow in such pity anymore... Must be more optimistic.. Hilary Duff will be my wife in the not too distant future...
Crap
It all happened not too long ago. I was wandering along the streets of Gombak when I saw her. She was dressed in white and blue, thin, skeletal to be exact. She was the most beautiful thing which I had ever set my eyes on. I just can't take my eyes off her. Red lights, all around me, all around her. Men, grouchy little dirty things could not keep their dirty little hands off her. I was agitated. How could they touch something so pure and innocent. I looked at her...she did not look back at me. I asked for her price and she said that 300dollars would suffice. Red lights, all around me, all around her. I bought her. I could not take it anymore. We assumed our positions, like two wild dogs of different gender would in an Animal Planet documentary. Red lights all around me, all around her. I panted, sweat drops the size of golf balls rolled all over my body. We were in motion. My lower half of my body could not stop moving. She had chains and I just could not restrain myself from jackhammering on her. Red lights, all round me, all around her. We were one in that 45 minutes of motion. The feeling was ecstatic. And then I got up, parked my bicycle and went home...